Okay, I'm only 39 years old now but still swirling in what I feel is a kind of early or pre midlife crisis. Sounds more dramatic when I put it down in words to be honest. Yikes. Anyway...I feel like I'm on the edge of big and crazy change. Which, I have to admit, I LOVE change. But in order to do so this time around I really need to tap into my gut and feel and listen to what its telling me. Hard to do though because I'm so deeply entrenched that I can't tell what the 'frig' its really telling me. Both of my options seem pretty dang good and each day I seem to sway toward one option more than the other but equally. I'm at a point in my life where I seem to have most everything I dreamed of having when I was a little younger. Nothing major like millions of dollars, etc, just the simple things that create happiness in life. I'm on the brink of it all coming together...and yet, I feel that something is missing and that's the pull in the other direction. I need to put both feet on one path or the other but I'm confused and kind of a coward for the first time in life! I usually jump in without too much hesittation but this feels monumental and is making me freeze in my tracks. A wise friend told me that whatever decision I make is going to be the right one and reminded me that I can make anything happen in life if its what I want, anything is possible...and I find myself hanging on to those words and repeating them in my head daily. I'm hoping something starts feeling really right so it can shift me in some direction and out of limbo.
The bright light of the month of June was seeing Josh Ritter in concert in Seattle with Tamara. FRONT ROW! That guy comes out smiling and never stops. His joy is infectious! Pure happiness and loving what he does...you can FEEL it. A role model for how to love the life you live.
